Happy Endings...for you

Some days, you feel just plain happy. Just like that.

The kind of days when you wake up in the morning, and there’s a song you hum in your heart, the song that drowns the endless noise of the traffic…you can never figure out where that song came from...

And if it’s a sunny day, you simply love the shine, if it’s a rainy day, you end up loving the damp…

The kind of days, you feel like smiling at a stranger, and you wont mind not getting a smile in return, the days when you wont care if the cab driver keeps the change even when you know he has the coins in his pocket..

Days when you don’t feel like complaining about sector 5 traffic, when you don’t feel guilty about having two ice creams in a row..

Days when you feel like writing a random mail to a friend you haven’t spoken for ages, the days you only feel like reading Calvin n Hobbes, or watching Breakfast at Tiffany’s again…

Days when you feel like coming straight home to surprise mom.

Such days come and go. But, what stays behind is the feeling. That’s enough to keep you waiting for more.

'If you carry your childhood with you , you never become older'

Raindrops and A Prayer

The wind blows incessantly, feral and free,

Shadows cast their spell as clouds are whisked away

To places beyond the last piece of sky you can see,

In a blissful merger of blue with grey.

Verses seem to travel from near and afar,

Riding on the backs of the storm and the rain

Colors smudge across this endless azure canvas

That strives to drown the qualms and the pain.

The storm provokes prayers, silent and strong -

Questions the foundations of tomorrows we’ve laid…

And in the spaces between the flurry of raindrops

I think of memories that are yet to be made.

Echoes...

(Another page from 'yesterday' - 2007... )

Dusky evenings and hazy noons

With moments spent in hasty care

Near-endless talks on nameless streets

Yet, words unspoken left behind somewhere.

Stray moments lost in time,

Where glances meet and silence reigns

Tangled thoughts that defeat reason

In empty promises and tired games.

And now the lonely winds that blow

Pass these aimless, vagabond minds

Which lie astray in the old grey streets

That echo with their worn out cries.

Time turns its back on time…

And leads to streets where Night never falls

To this day, these minds still wander

Mere crimson memories, stabbed by their own souls.

... a religion called destiny

(from the dusty old 'archives' - written way back in 2002...)

Sometimes you come across such a juncture in your life , when everything seems to make you realize that you are growing up.

And it makes you realize this in the hardest way possible. I wonder where those days went when we seemed happy with almost everything that happened to us… and didn't have so much time to think.

About, for and with.

The road that we walked on was straight... certain, with a peaceful innocence that was so warm, and pleasant. Regardless of what transpired, we could hold Maa's hand and melt away all our worries. Even now, we can do this. But, somehow, we have something going on in our heads that's different in a way.

We call it intelligence. Or may be 'sense'? I am sure these things were there before.
These fuzzy networks of sinewy complexities and nervous possibilities...

And yet, now, they make weird noises... which are getting louder by the minute! Fact is - they don't really mean anything, but you can sort of make out that they are 'protests'.

These are newer sounds that Mom cant hear.
More so, can't understand...

The so called maturity in growing up is mostly a myth. Or at best a coincidence.
Bottom line is : Mothers strike out.
We can't go back to her.

Neither of us will feel good about it. I guess that is what growing up means.

'Never never land' becomes a myth and a reality at the same time.

I love it for some reasons.
I hate it for most of the reasons.

The road that we walk on now meanders so much that we don't even realize what we may encounter at every corner and bend.
Sometimes, when we know, we pretend not to know and run away...
We run and reach a hiding place... but we can't stay there for too long. So, we come back, and this time, trapped, the situation worsens.

That's growing up, I guess.
Before, we never looked back. We never had to come back. We just happily found new places to take shelter in.
Now, shelters are not that easy to come by.
But to dream of them is simple enough.
The sound of shattering dreams is not infrequent though.

We have so many things to ask, so many things to say... but not enough words to express ourselves. We are often silenced by the shape of things to come, the infinite possibilities that the future holds...
And a religion called destiny.